Comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.

Passion - To feel an emotion deeply to the point of consumption. I try to be passionate about all things i like, and life. But life is kinda hard to be super passionate about.
Partner - Someone willing to work with you, and compromise with you. My parents are my biggest example of this because they're best friends before they're husband and wife. They're partners.
Phlebotomy - the art of poking people with needles. something i plan to learn and totally excel at.
Paragraph - the building blocks of books, and any type of comunication that's not vocal. What would the world be without the written word? I love it.
Pity - to feel sorry for the predicament of another. no one likes to be pitied.
Parent - one of usually two people who help raise you. my parents are a main focus in my life even still.
Pain - the reaffirmation of life.
Past - Events that occured before this moment in time. My past fogs out as i get older and i lose things i used to remeber, but its important to remeber but not dwell.
Perfection - what everyone strives to be in thier own way. It may not be the straight A student, the doctors degree, the white picket fence and 2 1/2 kids, but it's something everyone wants to be in some way.
Photograph - a still frame of a moment in time. I've come to appreciate pictures alot more then i used to considering i dont remeber a whole lot and pictures help me.

Hmm... Lets see. Mom goes in for surgery on the 27th of this month. If anythings misspelled, i dont use spell check because of my own quirk way of putting my talkings in with the way i type, but I just got a desktop, so im relearning how to type on a "normal" keyboard, and how to play RO with a big screen and an actual mouse. It's fun so far >.>

My cousin Nick just started playing RO him and his wife. They should gimme a goddamn commision for this. Most of my family will be playing RO eventually. At least it'll lower the phone bills eh? ^_^ Crashing early. Just wanted to post SOMETHING <3<3

That's all today has been so far. I need to get my taxes turned in and i need to check my mail but i guess i'll do up my taxes tonight and mail them in tomorrow while i check my mail. Wake up, work, go to china buffet with chona cause she's funny, come home chill out. I really should clean but i think i dont want to. I need to at least fold clothes and put them away. I really should go through my clothes and figure out what i wear anymore and what i dont and fork the rest of it over to goodwill, while i scrounge through thier stuff. I wonder what sarah's doing later. Mebbe i can convince her to go with me to goodwill. I convinced her to go to the movies with me the other night, we went to that Geisha movie. I cant remeber how to spell memories. >.> Or whatever the first word is. It was good, not better then the book but good none the less. I've been really into the h/d lately. *shruggs* I've been going through the links and finding new ones i haven't read yet. Two full length, finished ones in as many days. not too shabby. I really should go to Kim's bookstore but im starting to run outta room to store the damn things. My apt is only so big. -_- Oh well.

Mom and i lvl'd the other day down in the payon caves and we both survived on our acos. But hers is fs and mine is a snap monk to be ^_^ Soo... Then jamie and i went and lvl'd my aco a bit more in athoya which isnt so bad cept for all the damn monkeys. -_- They were like everywhere and jamie kept hording them even though we couldn't kill them and yea... hes just a pain in my ass sometimes. I should kick him. My priestess is still 74, cause i just haven't had time to lvl her and i havent been able to find Tari to take me to darkframes or minos whichever really.

I am missing of the jamie, and i think the cat is too cause i bust her sleeping on the pillow that smells like him. Silly cat.

The weather is getting a bit better, less cold. It was nice outside today and i know im guna regret these words but damn i wish it'd get warmer. I already know this summer's guna be another scorcer. I have faith in that.

Chona's fortune in her cookie today said "The fortune you seek is in another cookie." XD We decided that maybe we should go back tomorrow when she'll get her real fortune. :p silly Chona.

I've been having a set of story flashes again lately, mebbe i'll sit down and type it all out, might post it. I'll never follow through with it, i have yet to actually finish a story ^_^ Who knows really. Maybe more postage later, prolly not. Not much to report lately, Oh how ima boring white girl ^_^

Ps. Mom goes in on Friday to schedule the fusion surgery for her back. Depending on how bad it is and how bad its going to get soon, is how they're going to schedule. The worse it is the closer to friday the surgery will be. Wish her luck everyone.

I realized something awfully profound to my life. I miss my mother when shes on painkillers. I miss her so much...

Oh yea. She sucks. If i commited murder, would you all come visit me in jail? >.> Anyway, mom and i lvl'd some in RO that was about the highlight of my day. Kinda sad but oh so sweet and fluffy. We've been collecting yarn to make beenies in RO cause we're silly and want matching hats. XP Oh well. Anyway, we're up too 277 yarns. Go us. Jamee's comin in march. ^^ I can't wait. Eeeeeeeee. UFOS are real. So ha.

We've had subzero temps all day. With windchill factor, but consider the winds have been upwards of 20 miles an hour, I'd say it counts. It's so fuckin cold, like sink into your bones and keep you cold for a week type cold. It's not kewl, and it's not suposed to stop for like a week or so. Goddamn arctic.

Or so i say whenever i get irritated. That's when you know you've totally pissed me off and i have nothing else to say. When i say "Boys are stupid." You know i'm fighting with one of my many guy friends. Though tonight was an unusual one. Jamie and i kind of had a tussle, which doesnt usually happen as Jamie is the very laid back type, and doesnt really like to fight with me. It wasn't a knock down drag out kind, but i still quite irritated at the time. And after, i felt like a right ass. I hate it. I hate how he can do that, fight with me and then i feel so bad about fighting with him afterwards. After i calm down and look back and im like Yea that was a stupid fight, why'd i even bring it up? So yea. Tonight was one of those fights. Now don't get me wrong, i sure as hell wont feel bad if we had this big fight and i looked back and i felt totally justified. Just tonight. Well... Yea i was being stupid. Which i'm, for the most part, not afraid to admit. It happens with me like it does everyone else. Come on, you know you've had a totally stupid moment where your just like "Omg, what was i thinking?!" One of the things that comes to mind is a wonderful poem, read by one of my favorite actresses, in one of my favorite movies. Take it away Julia.

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate it...
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all.

Work was work. Another 3 days to go on this shift. Still sick. XD Mom's still broken. Nothin much else to report in the daily life of me. No gym today, prolly tomorrow. The beginning of this movie makes me glad im an only child but only sometimes. XP Anyway, g'night boys and girls <3

Let's see. Not much to report today. Went home last night reguardless of my sick status to do some laundry and to see my mother. Whom... i just really wanted to see. That woman's like my best friend. Kinda weird, i know. But she's all i've had. I left my cat at my house this time, she was awfully lovey when i got home. My friend J called me earlier and he has forsaken the internet for now to pursue life. He's engaged. Yea i know, that's what i thought at first. But it works, he's guna move in with the girl and then take things from there. I'm proud. ^_^

My aunt Jo is planning on moving up here. That'll be interesting.

My dad's favorite commercial of all time: http://www.princeton.edu/~amoroz/nextel-dance_party.mov

~~Edit 7:39 PM~~

Well... Lana talked me into going to the gym with her at which point i get almost half way through my circuit and it starts to get hard to breathe. Like, really hard to breathe like almost painful in my chest hard to breathe. So i tell her i need to sit down, and on the way to sitting down the world starts to get fuzzy around the edges and my hearing starts to get all muffled. And im thinking, "Well this is just great. Pass out at the gym on valentines day." But i told lana that i was done for the night and she'd have to finish without me, so i sat there and tried not to shake and drank my water and breathed some funky ass air and i was okay eventually. After workin out we went to wally world to find Lana a lint shaver. That's SHAVER not roller. Cause of the little pills that ended up on one of her favorite pairs of pants, which she was picking off by hand. What a dork. XP But yea we found one and she was happy cause she was to the point to where she was just guna throw away the pants and im like O.o Omg, Lana. XD And on the way out of wally world i saw the claw machine. DUN DUN DUN. I'm totally infamous for wanting ugly stuffed animals from those damn machines, spending all the ones i have and all theo nes my mother has, and so on and so forth, well this one was for little kids and was a gaurntee win. I ended up with an ugly hippo, a nemo like fish thing, and this lil blue dog. Well Lana was beside herself for the fish so to her the fish went, the ugly hippo was obviously for me XP and is now on the dashboard of my car and the lil blue dog is gunna have a home with Sarah girl. Uh ho...

It seems my cat has taken a likeing to the lil stuffed dog. It's meant for Sarah but if the cat likes it, who'mi to tell her no? Okay, so i'll give her the stuffed animal but not my watch. Or my toes... Anyway, it's another valentines day. Whoo whoo. Another one in which im alone. How lovely is that? Considering the one i'd wanna spend it with is still currently on another continent. The bastard. You hear me Jamiejamie? Youra bastard. Oh well, he owes me flowers anyway :P So i called up Sarah and wanted to know what she was doin tonight, and as it so happens she is valentine-less as well. So I told her to be my valentine and that we'd go out for dindin. Sooo... To the china buffet we shall go! YAY! Total score there.

It has been almost an entire year since i have posted anything even semi worth reading in this thing. I turn 21 this year in June. Which is somewhere in the range of 4 months, i plan to hide deep within my apt from all people during that time. I already know what i'm like drunk and im sure the rest of the world would be happier non-aware.

I have been working at the same dementia facility for a year now. As the bottom rung of the ladder, a CNA but oh how i enjoy my old people. They're great. My peers are another story, as one is currently actively trying to get me fired. That's always fun. My big boss, which i have gone to talk to, refuses to address the situation telling me simply that it will be this way no matter where i go, and that he cant tell her to back off simply because "she was just doing her job as a charge nurse" Which i greatly disagree with. Oh well. Work sucks, and then you go home.

Still living in my little one bedroom apt. Me and the cat, who is still totally crazy. Sleeping on my face, inhibiting my habit of rolling over in the middle of the night, and jumping on other inhabitants of my bed. Which i also greatly disagree with. I have a couch now, it's man eating tho. You have to be careful it was salvaged from the local goodwill for a grand total of 75 bucks, i think, it could have been 25 i dont honestly remeber. But it's a good couch, reguardless of it hunger for human flesh and blood. My collections of not only manga but also dvd's has greatly expanded past my old skool shelf of cinder blocks and wood, and so i had to go and buy another shelf to house my horrid addictions. :P I am no more organized then i ever have been in my life. Though i will, on occasion, go around and pick up my house like i did today. At which times it actually looks somewhat like a house. I've started collecting dried flowers, that one of my residents gets and tosses. So i pull out the ones that still have a little life, bring them home and dry them. Not a big collection, but its growing. Hmm...

I still dont have much in the way of real life friends. People to go places with, Lana has thusly been forbidden from me, and yet she still sneaks over to my house on occasion. And we go to work out together at the local gym. Which is where i should be today, but alas i am sick. Yet again. My friend Sarah from highschool is still rather prominent a figure in people i go out with, tho she is anxiously awaiting my 21st so then we dont have to stay "coped" up in my place of residence. We went to the movies just lately to go see the new Underworld, and Nanny Mcphee, which we went to the late showing of and were the only geeks in the theather. So we babbling, making comments about the movie and some such through the entire thing so it's not like we paid attention anyway. XP My friend Martha from work, i havent seen and have yet to get off my ass to call, even though i really should, because shes been restricted from work and put on bed rest as she is just barely 2 months pregnant and at a high risk for a miscarriage and also has a cyst on one of her ovaries. So. In bed she must stay. My friends Annalee and Christi from work are just bad people XD And i try and stay away from them outside the work setting where they can be resitrainted. XPXP J/k btw.

My mother is currently fighting with her back problems again. As the gel in the disc seems to be coming out of the other side of her disc. She was back using a walker last week but now has good painkillers and muscle relaxers and has a date with Dr. Brown on the 24th of this month as to her fusion surgery which is what they were trying to postpone with my moms recent bought of physical therepy, and Uh... I cant remeber the word, but its the back straightening guy. The one who snaps all your lil bones and stuff. I dont remeber the word. But it was suposed to trigger the fusion on its own but it doesnt seem to be working and thus we're doing the surgery. I'm not sure what kind yet, and it could take up to a year for my mother to fully recover. Well. Fuck. That coupled with my mother's mother, Grandmother's, growing senility, and loss of self. Which we're all associating with the ending of my Grandmother's life. Which was bound to happen. The woman's ancient and her intimidating reign as scary ass Grandmother was going to end eventually. I just hope it doesnt happen while my mother's like this. Oh well. I love both of thier grumpy asses anyway.

Jamie came to see me last november and the visit was... actually not bad. Though i did manage to fuck it up, we talked about it and figured out what happened and why, and he's suposed to be coming out again in March. I think im inlove. Okay, i dont think, last time i check i was. But let's not babble about that right now. <3 my stupid brit.

I've put many a thought into moving again. Getting another job in spokane or something, I'm not sure yet, but i am looking as of last weekend. Maybe i'll find something, maybe i wont. Who knows for sure, more of my highschool friends are in spokane, i'd probably keep better track of them that way.

I still currently play RO. Though my mother does usually as well. This would be my second account and my third full support priestess. A lvl 73 as she's sitting atm, as my usual lvling partner, my mother, is currently incompassitated. A lvl 61 sin, a 53 hunteress, and a 43 aco-to-be-monk, would be my chars. I spend alot of time ingame, but not so much actually playing as it's my main means of getting ahold of jamie whenever i can. As he lives on the game, and pretty much doing things in the game, he spoils me horribly whenever he can and so on and so forth.

I was hoping to revamp and thusly reinterest myself in this online journal to keep a record of my thinkings and such, tho alot of them are already written down in various journals around my house, non of which are completely full or even near finished. I may or may not wait another year for another update. Hopefully i wont.

~Sincerely, Me. <3

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Playful Kisser

Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!